firstly: its sunday which means deadlineday. so this morning i weighted 62,4! well, actually i should be happy or feel good but i dont. its still more than i ever weighted. its no triumph. its more something embaressing.
yesterday a boy who i actually like and maybe have a little crush on told me while we were kidding that i have become fater since the last time we saw eachother. i know he didint meant it, but i knew he was right! i felt so horrible. i didnt realised how fast my body changed. i was kind of blind! i remember the times when i weigthed 58kg and thought i were looking fat! how do i have to look like with 62?
im desperate. i need to lose more weight. therer are sill 23 days left. i have to make it.